Monday, June 1, 2009

what advice do you give a friend...

what advice do you give a friend when she is madly in love with her boyfriend but then out of the blue another friend tells her he "loves" her... and to make it all worse he is also in a long term relationship... and yet worse they are all good friends!

she has no feelings for this other guy... never thought of him in any other way... yet now she has to make the decision to say somethin to her female friend or let it pass... she has to decide whether to tell her man and risk him gettin angry at the other guy and not wanting to be friends... or him to get mad at her and think she initiated it... and all of this is so suprising for any on looker...

i really want to help her and tell her good advice but its hard... i couldnt imagine being in her shoes and having to deal with all that...

this last year and a half i have learned so much about love and relationships and i dont feel anywhere near strong or confident enough to give her advice... i can support her in a decision she makes but thats the extent of it... am i a bad friend... i dont want to give her wrong advise and i honestly dont think i can even give her advise... i dont know what i would do either...

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

nerd night/ bowling craziness!!!

ok to start off with I am a nerd… most of you know this but I have to decided to write about it and explain a little about it… everyone knows about my love of batman, and bowling… if I could bowl everyday I would be perfectly ok with it! in fact ive thought about doing just that... going after work and pickin different lanes around town and just bowl a game or 2... how sweet would that be!? well before i get to into the bowling part of this blog lets talk about my deep dark secret ive been keeping... the true nerd side of me...

well every Tuesday is nerd night me and a bunch of guys (who will remain nameless to protect the innocent lol) started getting together… at first it started of simple and innocent… football… well then football ended and we needed somethin else to do… so we started dapping into playing magic... man was that fun... we ended up moving from mondays to tuesdays which then became nerd night... we were really pretty happy playin magic, we even went as far as to make edh decks, and had a draft/tourney when the new set came out.... awe the innocent days... it was all fine and dandy til one night one of the nameless guys (cough chris cough) said hey we have enough peeps we should play DnD (dungeons and dragons for you nerdless ones) and thats where we went down hill... well me anyway since all them played from when they were little... and i have to admit... i really really like playing its neat to have to pretend to be that character and to have to do things you never in real life could do... so here i am confessing to you all now... i am a Nerd.

now I can go back to my bowling rant… well last night I had to leave nerd night cause I got a phone call that some people from my Wednesday night bowling team needed a bowler to cover one that dropped in the tourney they entered… it was already paid all i had to do was pay parking show up... I dont know what came over me but i went and let me tell you talk about intense! Wow… after almost fainting and being totally overwhelmed I did it… it was a 5 man team and I bowled with some of the greatest people ever… the tourney started the end of feb and goes to july so we don’t know how we did... we know we didnt win but we did average if not a little bit better then average... i didnt bowl very good (406 series) but i learned and experienced so much more then i ever expected! one of the gentlemen on the team owns a bowling alley down in mississippi and he gave me some really good comments and he also gave me some even better advice to help my game... i could go all into it on here but its hard to explain esp with all the bowling lingo but ill be more then willing to tell you about it in person if you want! but this experience made me think and i liked the way it made me feel to be out there and that i might start gettin a little more serious and maybe entering some tourneys for myself! i loved it and im really proud of myself...

Monday, April 6, 2009

ugh april and i havent posted since feb... im not good at this

ok so im going to try and update everything for the last month and im not going to stop until ive told everything! so this may be long!

well there isnt much more to tell you about in feb since the only exciting thing to tell you was vday and I did blog that… but I have sad news, casanova died after only havin him for a week. he got sick and we couldn’t save him… we gave it one hellova try though. come to find out blue guorami's have a disease that is very fatal to them and unless you get one from an actual breeder 9/10 of the fish have it...

ok so now into march!

so march was kinda busy for me. I had darricks bday (12th) and his and my one year anny! so lets start with his bday! I got him this really really neat slacker radio player. Its like a cross between a sirius radio and an ipod… me and brian took him to dinner also... well little did he know that we also planned a party for him for saturday (14th). it was casino theme and we had balloons and food and alcohol! it really really turned out great!

then on the 25th was our anny. Well darrick planned it all out for us. And let me tell you it was so great and wonderful and I do have to admit I have an amazing bf and im thankful for him everyday. Ok so back to the night! Well I got off from work and got to his house showered and got ready. he was already home (early) so we drove down to a hotel called the "artisan" its way better then it looks! it was so pretty! well he got us a room there! we went up to our room and he gave me my present (i already had given him his a bowling ball!!!!!!!!) i read the card first and it made me cry (im a girl leave me alone) then he tells me i might not want to open the rest of the present if the card alone made me cry. i did anyway! he gave me a picture frame with a pic of me and him in it and also the 2 movie tickets from our first date! (horton hears a who) of course he was right I started crying more… I cant help it im a sap for cheesiness! But after I calmed down a little I went to sit by him and he pulled his hand out of his pocket and gave me a key! He asked me to move in!!! so after all that excitment we went downstairs had a couple drinks and ate dinner... after dinner we went back upstairs to lay down and relax from our full bellies... after about 20 mins he talked me into walkin the strip with him... so we drove to the excalibur where he decided to park and we went into the casino went down to the arcade and played some ski ball... which im sorry to tell you hunny but i proved that i could kick your butt in ski ball... i won myself a horse stuffed animal! so we left the casino walkin across the bridge darrick asked if i wanted to ride the roller coaster at new york... i said sure... and once again darrick tricked me... he actually took me to go see Zumanity!!! and it was awesome... it was such a good show! and that was the night! he really really out did himself and it was one of the best nights so far! ever!

so now that brings us to now… oh I said yes and now ive been stressing and moving and packin and going out of my mind. Moving out is actually a little more emotional then I thought it would be. Im tryin to go thru the stuff and throw out what I don’t need or really really want. its so hard cause i go thru the stuff and some of it brings back memories... some good some bad. but its also really refreshing. i get reminded of the great things in my life and i get to look forward to showing and sharing some of the memories with darrick.

im really excited and looking forward to this next phase in my life. With everything that has been going on in my life this last year this is going to be a huge change. But im so excited to share it with darrick and for us to take our next step forward. he is my rock.

ok well that’s all that I can think of that’s happened up to date.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

on a lighter side!

ok so everyone know that saturday was valentines day well for my valentines my hunny was awesome! first friday he hid some flowers in my car! then on actual valentines day he had set up my room! first i had a path of hershey kisses (w/ almonds my fav) to my bed and on my bed there was a big heart also made from kisses and in the middle a rose and a card! then another path of kissed to my fish tank... and in my fish tank was...

CASANOVA my new fish!!!

i really have a great bf and i am so thankful for him everyday... and just when i think i cant love him more he proves me wrong... hes really wonderful! he is my rock.

dont understand

ok so this blog is a little depressing and a little on the dark side... but i really really need to vent.

so i dont understand peoples thinkin, when your unhappy in a marriage its so easy just to go get a divorce, why burn someone. why go as far as to try to kill yourself and hurt your children. really thats who your hurtin. if your so unhappy in the marriage and you have another boyfriend you want to be with... do what you gotta do to be with him... killing yourself doesnt help you or the one you want to be with...

also who writes a suicide note to their 17 yr old daughter thru myspace!! really how immature is that. you are 38 grow up... you are causing so much anger and anguish to everyone around you and as for me im done... i want nothing to do with you... i was done before but you have burned every bridge you could have rebuilt. i really hope my dad is smart enough to get rid of you for good.

Monday, January 19, 2009

*Survivalist* Part 1

ok so in the last week ive had 2 run in's with death… (or really just severe bodily harm… or just chris) hehe so im going to write 2 separate blogs about it... only cause it happened on 2 different days... so here is the first one

Christopher

It was a nice Saturday night. As a matter of fact it was a 3 king birthday bonanza! We thru a party for our 3 birthday boys. The night started off great. A lot of people a lot of alcohol and even lots of fun colorful decorations… it was all and all fun until I was attacked...

I was walkin thru the living room to go and see what was going on when out of the blue this huge fist came out of no where and punched me in my poor leg.... i turn around with great anger and see that my attacker was none other then Mr Christopher the meanest, biggest popeyed forearmed monster you will ever meet! He had this i'm gonna get you look on his face... i feared for my life, so the only hope i had left was to put him on the ground on his back and maybe he's be like a turtle and not be able to get back up... again i forgot about this popeyed forearms... and like spinach is to popeye, diet dr pepper and rum is to Mr Christopher...

as i was puttin him on the ground he latched on to my arms and pulled me to the ground, flipped over ninja style and was on top of me... he made a war cry and had 2 more ninjas helpin him one tickling my legs and the other messing up my hair.... i was helpless... and Mr Christopher keep attackin... it wasnt until i cried uncle he released and called off his minions...

dont worry... i will get my revenge... 1/25/09!!!!!

Friday, January 9, 2009

hi its me!

ok so hi!
i dont know where to begin so im reachin here... lately (prolly 5 months now) ive been thinkin about doing blogs... i just get these random thoughts, stories in my head... some good some bad... and im really bad at expressing myself out loud... so maybe i will be better at this...

really im doing this to clear my head... i cant promise that these will always be happy go lucky... but i can promise you that they will all me my true feelings, thoughts and stories i think of lol...

i had a whole lot to say about 10 mins ago and now ive lost them lol... well heres to the beginning!!